Haishh. In a sad/fucked-up mood to blog. yes, i am sad.

i am really sad. i'm sad because of HIM. i'm fucked-up because of my fucking father. Mr*ahem* , you might think that whateva you sent me might not affect me, but to me, IT DOES. you said i'm sensitive. yes, i AM sensitive to what you say. well, after recieving that text from you, went to the staircase opposite Mr.Teh Tarik? & cried. Thanks Era for being there for me. i know he's sweet, but now my hopes for him is gone. After seeing his fb picture, i felt jealous. i envy the girl beside him. sighh. Grace, it's time to get over yourself. *♥* does that sign mean anything to you Mr? or is it just to make me jump up & down for you meaningless-ly? :/ i'm feeling insecure, lost, unsure. why am i having a sudden moodswing? :/ People say we are cute together whenever we text each other. but it's just not what i'm feeling now. :/ i'm not feeling that you're cute. i'm not feeling the happiness i have whenever an unexpected text came from you :/ question is this : why? :/ .. the last message from you didn't made my day even with a *♥*in it.. :/ you asked me to go out with you. i don't want to. i'd get hurt even more. i'm sorry. :/ mayb, the 4 months should stop here. :/ being with you WILL hurt you. i don't want that to happen to you. therefore, we can't be close.. ): i guess, today is the day i finally woke up from my fantasy. :/

QUESTION OF THE DAY: WHY? :/ i don't wanna hurt him anymore, i don't want anything else for now. get it over with.