hello. nowadays keep on zi lian-ing? haha. today's the first day of CNY. i recieved lesser ang pows. danng. i miss my boyf to the depths of my hearts. )': soo yeahh, 1st day, wore a striking red dress, blacked-heart necklace & a st.loius yellow bag. i know, it doesn't match, oh well. after visting, family went to Jurong Bird Park for some Dinosaurs thingy. it was a waste of time. walking around like some crap, looking @ fake pieces of bullshits. crapppp. took some pictures with my beloved cousin too, even though she's only p3, i can change her. haha. & i feel sticky all over. too much make up spoiling up my face. shall have my natural beauty. (: collected enough money for payment, & SHOPPING. aites, till here.

you said you love me. that you won't hurt me. won't leave me. but, there's still a wall blocking the path we are going.. the reason is because of me.. for it was me, that you were broken-hearted many times. it was because of my selfishness that made you cry for me. the happiness i gave youu might not last. nor the happiness you give me. i had fear in my eyes, it was like a motion of my past coming alive again. you asked me whether i did it before, i told the truth. but i know i am done, i had enough.. at the time at the park, i don't really know where to start & where to stop. cause it keeps reminding me of my past.. & i can't let go. )': when we held hands, hugged. tears almost ran down my face.. )': i won't let you see this side of me.. )':