Everyone's said that i've changed after YOUTH CAMP. yayy! (: good sign. just came back from church. ALVIN was there, with my babbyy! ( the camera). stole it from him again. i think he's pissed. finally took pictures with him, HIP HIP HOORAY. Elsa helped me put eyeliner. i look god damn spastic man. even Seb was saying EMO KID. CUT YOURSELF. hahaha, i love seb. He's damn funny man! (: i LOVE LOVE LOVE CHURCH. i also supported Kimmy! (: & .. When i was in the sound room, Johnston say he got stomach ache, i don't know how true but, HE came in. than i was just like, STUNNED. he was there to check the mikes. than i was just staring blankly at his face, than he turned. still staring, than he asked how i was, & guess what i said? i said i was PISSED. than he was like.. OHH. than he went away. im so so so sorry.. I didnt mean to hurt you that way. i want to forget you but i couldn't.. so basically, i might think today was suck-ish, and the eyeliner really helped me become emo? during Rehearsal, i wanted to turn and tell Kim something, than it was HIM. i was bloody ps man. than he sat infront of me & asked me why i called him FLUFFY, it wasn't me it was RACHEL who called him that. bcoz of his hair. than he went off.. still staring. i KNOW that he has already noticed that i was ignoring him. sighh. WHAT WHY MUST THE WORD "SIGHH" SOUND THE SAME WITH HIS NAME?! Sound room, Stage, rehearsal, with seb & alvin, EVERYWHERE. i cant stop thinking and glancing. im not sure whether i can take the pressure of seeing you daily.. its like ever since i've been in the youth, YOU"RE ALWAYS THERE.. )':