hello hello everyone.

school was quite suckish today. didnt wore my PE shirt because of oral, but still i sweat madly. well, thats me i guess. secretly using dad's computer since my maid didnt do a good job at hiding it. well, about Sunday, yes, HE did came. His mom hugged me and said she missed me. guess what i did, i just said 'HI' to him. yes, not so kind-friendly me. he's a brother too me . (: well, the other half of what happen in church was that I was sooooo mad at myself for liking a guy that my best friends liked. it was a sudden cupid arrow hitting and aiming at me. gosh, why? why do i even like him? i accidentally told my friend i BLUSHED around him, and she got soo SUSPICIOUS. i think, YOU, are overprotecting him too much, yes, he's hot thats why he's got soo many admirers! STOP IT WITH YOU TELLING ME ABOUT YOUR PMS-ING. im fucked up about you and your nonsense. He said HI to you, as a friend, i left you alone with him, but you kept following me! stop it, just tell him! and when you got home, i know, he started to stare at me and asked me "what i was doing", heck, of course i would blush you moron. pathetic shit.

you looked over a few times. i ignored you for the sake of my friend. oh how i hate love triangle. being with you is like putting myself in DANGER, and i dont want that. She's so called "controlling" me, i cant help it. she has a huge BITE of her own.